I remember when I was selfish, into myself, and jealous. I wasn’t very pleasant to be around. Ever since I learned I was diagnosed with ALS, a life- changing experience, I’ve had a lot of time to rethink my attitude, my ways of speaking to others, and my habit of putting myself on a pedestal. I became ashamed, and I wondered what I could do to repair relationships and friendships.
The first thing I did was to ask for forgiveness. That’s when I first called my friend and mentor, Naomi. Second, I tell my family and friends how much I truly loved them. Third, I stopped yelling at people, and started treating them with respect. Fourth, I pushed myself off of that darn pedestal, vowing to never place myself up there again.
So far, nothing has negative has happened, but blessings have I received in abundance! The most poignant thing that has brought me blessings is my change in attitude; God has blessed me for being humble. I’m happy because I’ve helped some people with problems, and led others to Christ. Without Christ, We are nothing.. My greatest blessing is that I have healed my relationships with my children. They mean so much to me.
So, why am I joyful about being diagnosed with ALS? For all of the reasons above, and because I’m a penitent child of God. He loves when His children come to Him in prayer. By the way, if you’ve asked me to pray on your behalf, I pray for you each and every day. I got your back!
2 Corinthians 13:11b – …live in peace; and the God of love and peace shall be with you. (KJV)
I live a peaceful life because the God of love dwells in my heart and my soul. But, you may ask, how did he get in there? It’s very simple … I prayed and asked Him to come into my heart! I knew that Jesus had died for my sins, after having lived a perfect life of his own. I also knew that He had died an horrific death.
Dying on the cross made it as if we never sinned at and cleared our way to Heaven! It’s God’s most important miracle. It makes me want to praise and sing to the Lord!
In the meantime, I’m still living with ALS, awaiting God’s perfect timing in the manifestation of my healing. I’m thankful God saw fit to trust me with this disease. Do you know why? Join me next week!
I hadn’t seen Naomi since we graduated from high school in 1992. I had done something wrong way back then, and it gnawed at me for years.
I needed her forgiveness. When I told her why I called, she had forgotten the whole incident. I felt relief in my head and in my soul. From that moment on, we became friends and eternally sisters in Christ!
That was the leading part of my life-altering phone call…
We knew that she and I are both children of God. Therefore, our conversation, surrounding our God, became God can heal me! I took in that information … and I was shocked! Until that phone call, I had resigned myself to die with this horrible disease. Naomi told me to search God’s Word, the Holy Bible, for verses about God’s healing hand. Jesus healed many people and he raised persons from the dead. So, why couldn’t he cure me? The point is, he can! He could, if he chooses to. Either now or when I get to Heaven. The thought is very comforting. I want you to feel it, too.
I want you to feel the peace that now I accept in my life. Here’s how … next week!
Eventually, I needed an electric wheelchair, so I could get around by myself. I would go outside and smile at the stars and wonder when I’d be looking down at those sparklers, instead of looking up.
As a lover of nature, I spent my time going to beautiful places, and some excitably fun areas, too. I took a trip to Washington, D.C. with my dad and my children. If you’ve ever been to our nation’s capitol, you know how much there is to do and see there. I haven’t mentioned before, but, after my diagnosis, I wanted to travel with my immediate family.
I went with my mom and my sisters to Hershey, P.A. There is much to do in Hershey Chocolate Factory, and we indulged in it all. With my husband, we traveled across country, from New Jersey to California and back. We saw, among other things, the Grand Canyon and the Hoover Dam.
After the vacations, I made a life-altering phone call. But more on that next week!
I have very annoying, year-round allergies. I was getting weekly shots, in the hope that I would get relief from these darn allergies. At first, my allergies were getting better, as I pushed my walker through my allergist’s office, slowly.
One week, I was sitting in the waiting room, bored. I went through the magazines offered by the office, waiting for my shot. Normally I am frugal, so I chose a Money magazine, and as I searched for money-saving tips, I found, instead, an article about the high cost of ALS.
As I read it, I knew I had ALS. His problems were my symptoms! Even from the start, my symptoms matched his. From the drop foot (a condition where the patient loses the ability to lift their foot) to the tripping and falling.
I had always been tripping over my feet, so it made me think. Did I always have ALS, which was slowly, very slowly, causing me to fall? It’s entirely possible. I’ve known a lady who was diagnosed at the young age of 21. Also, my neurologist told me I will live with this disease for a long time.
(To be continued)
2020 was a difficult year for everyone. May the new year bring blessings to us all!
How can we expect blessings after a year of turmoil? In Isaiah 41:10, God tells us, “Fear thou not; for I am with you: be not dismayed; for I am thy God…”
Philippians 4:19: But my God shall supply all thy need according to his riches in Christ Jesus.
3 John 1:2: Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth.
You see, if you are a child of God, God wants for you to be blessed! He blesses us when we try to live as Christ did. No one can lead a perfect life, and Christ did that for us. We should all pray that God will bless and prosper all of us.
James 4:2b: Ye have not, because ye ask not.
(All Bible verses are from the KJV Bible.)
At the age of 36, I was diagnosed with ALS, amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, also known as Lou Gehrig’s disease. What started as a page on Facebook, eventually developed into this blog, at my daughter’s request.
Now, 10 years later, I am surprised to be alive. Not only that, but I am thriving. I have three children. All of them are in their 20’s and though I have had a tracheostomy, and I can’t move anything except my head, they have settled into “this is our life now.” They know what I can and can’t do, and we live our lives accordingly.
So, why do I call my site “Things I Want Your Heart To Know?” Because my three darlings need to know what is in my heart; and I wish for them to carry my love for them in their own.